Irony

i may not be a champion in environment friendly movement, but i do care for the mother earth.. i try not to use the air-conditioner when I’m alone in office.. i try to switch off my comp when I’m away for more than 30 mins..

it is ironic that the new shopping mall, City Square, was called an eco-friendly mall, but they do provide shuttle buses.. and these shuttle buses are rarely full.. is tat wat they call environmentally friendly mall?

the recent Climate Conference at Copenhagen dont seems to be any impact at all.. or at least, the impact is not visible yet..

the irony: ppl are trying to combat the climate change and yet in S’pore ppl rejoice over the new fully air-conditioned bus interchange at Boon Lay.. i already frowned when the TPY air-conditioned interchange started operating years ago.. now another one.. no wonder we are experiencing weird climate these days..

if ppl do not start making changes, i fear the worst is yet to come..

Two sides of a coin

some ppl will say "life is short, so why rush?".. but there are also ppl tat say "life is short, so why waste it?".. which category you belongs to? i would very much want to choose the former, but i had wasted my 24 years.. need to start buck up and catch up with the lost time.. must pia now.. life is short, so why waste it.. i won't want to regret at my death bed..

working in social service sector surely wont bring me the monetary reward tat i want.. it is the happy face on the beneficiaries, the "thank you", the appreciation from other ppl, the satisfaction in the volunteers' face, the warm and touching moments..

but we cannot forget that a lot of people, even some of the beneficiaries, take us for granted.. ethically we are obliged to serve you, but please get you facts right.. you want helps and yet so demanding and with attitude..

the event on the 20th went on quiet smoothly.. though have bumps here and there.. i wont say it was a fantastic event, but at least still acceptable (in my humble opinion).. thanks to all those tat offered to help.. WS, Ibu, MY, RM, and all the other volunteers..

will you ever get the feeling of lonely even though you are surrounded by friends?

some randomness: currently, i'm reading "Teach Yourself to Think" by Edward De Bono

Regret?

it is indeed true tat next year will be an exciting year for me at my workplace.. haha.. if the sources are correct, then i’ll be moving forward to do more of the professional work rather than just programme planning and implementation.. LOL.. hopefully this will provide the excitement for me!!

good or bad, nobody will know.. i just hope that i wont be regretting this at the end of my life..

talk about end of life, these thought of dying and death are haunting me again.. as you all know, i’m super scared of it.. horrified.. i need some spiritual guidance!!

making tat leap

i went to help a senior citizen from my workplace to get something from her house.. it is big.. nice cosy spacious.. in fact, too spacious.. she told me tat she is living all alone with her cats.. her son rarely come back though she still kept his room intact.. it is a little heart wrenching.. an elderly living all alone.. wat is happening? how can children just leave their parents alone?

visited TL today too.. kinda relieve to know tat he is still as crappy as usual.. means he is okay.. life is unpredictable.. so live life to the max.. or you can just slack all you want, cos you wont know wat will happen next.. hahaha..

having said tat, i still do not have the courage to make the leap of faith.. quoting rumina "i am sure that the work you do is valuable too".. but now i'm having doubt in myself too.. am i really doing something valuable? it maybe true.. but at the same time i am barely surviving every month.. i wont be getting my house, my car (not tat i wanna get it), my retirement if i stuck to this same field.. seriously having second tots.. if only i dont have loan to repay, then i'll make tat leap..

wat i'm afraid of, after a few years and i have already repaid my loan, i will be so complacent and so used to the stability, tat i wont make tat leap of faith anymore.. *sigh*

it's complicated and i need some excitement in life..