I'm stressed

i'm stressed out.. but i have nobody to blame.. blame it on myself..

serve me right.. yeah, i know liao.. still i think this thing is going to repeat itself again in the future.. seriously i need to buck up (and how many times i said tat oledi?? uncountable).. make sure everything i do will be the best from now onwards!!!

is there really things like fate and 'ming zhong zhu ding'?? if anyone of you know about numerology, there is this thing called life number and name number.. if i didnt remember wrongly, either one of my life number or name number is 5.. and ppl with tat will tend to experience something, forgot about it, experience the same thing and thought it is a whole new experience.. thus, they (me included) tend to repeat the same mistake, cos they keep forgeting the experience.. how true.. cos i keep repeating my mistake and everytime i said i want to change, it will be the same.. really cannot break out of fate?? but ppl also say you control you own life.. *sigh*

someone just slap me and let me wake up from my fantasy..