CNY

CNY is just a round the corner... in fact 2 more days... cant wait for it...

i'll be back at my home to celebrate CNY with family... this festive season sure is a good break from the school... wonder will it be different from previous year CNY?? sadly, singapore public holiday for CNY is just 2 days... so cant really enjoy much also... just a short break... but, hey,,, better than none right....

talking about school, recently i m so blur and lost about school works and wat is going on... really need to catch up after CNY... no time to lose...

It is time to be serious

been playing too much... it is time to catch up with my studies... been lagging behind... i should play less and study more...

ok... this is my plan...

1. spend at least 1 hour a day to revise on the day lessons
2. can only play 1 hour of games a day*
3. must attempt to do all my tutorials
4. cannot skip any lectures**

* can play more if i finished my works or it is weekends
** no matter how boring and useless the lecture is, i cannot skip it...

I m perfectly fine

The night is long, the wind is strong,
the pale moon above, illuminating the grove,
reminiscence of the past, of the time tat had gone fast,
sadden heart, wishing to have a new start.

the cheerful sun, promise of some fun,
friends' with sincere smile, tat goes an extra mile,
i'm melting like butter under the heat,
how can my heart remain cold?

ok, guys... tat is a poem i crap out... not very nice... but just want to let all of u know tat i m fine... just a bit of moody... but it will go away... kinda like PMS... mood swing... watever u want to call it... dont forget, i m Cancer, very emotional...

thanks for all those who care!!!

How far would u go??

recently, my thought had been filled with this question "how far would u go for a friend?"

there is a chinese saying tat goes something like "zai jia kao fu mu, zai wai kao peng you", which means "when at home, u depend on parents but when u r outside u depend on friends"... but how many ppl nowadays will go all the way out for their friends... not much... ppl r self-centred...

it always bogging me... if one day i m in trouble, who will come and help me... although i rarely ask ppl for help when i have difficulties, but i wanted to know... would they help me just because they feel guilty if they dont, or they help me because they really treat me as friends... true friend!

recently, i m sick and tired of being the good guy... helping ppl do this and tat but wat did i get in return?? not tat i wanted something when i help ppl, it just tat i dont feel the gratitude... i dont feel tat my help is appreciated... really depressing... i dont feel like doing anything for anybody anymore... so drained, emotionally and physically...

once again, i m in mood swing again... not feeling very good now... so dont provoke me...

The importance of a mobile phone!!

lost my phone on thursday... so sad... well although not a very expensive phone, but still a phone...

*sigh*

thus i spend one whole day without phone... and i realise how dependent i m to my phone... so much tat i m so crippled without my phone...

everyday i would need my phone to act as an alarm... thus without it, i cannot wake up on time (as if i will wake up on time anyway)... furthermore, if i m late, my friends cannot call me to wake me up... so if i dont have my phone, i dont have to attend lesson liao... cos cannot wake up everyday... hahahah...

then the usual phone calls and sms-es... without a phone means i cannot call, receive calls, sms or receive sms-es... it will be challenging to contact someone or for ppl to contact you... so troublesome...

and for others, they still use their phone as radio, camera, mp3 player, games, torch light (yes, there is phone with torch light function), organiser, calculator and etc etc... *phew* u can do so many things with a phone... amazing!!!

What a Weekend! Drenched, swollen knuckles, aching thigh muscles

*phew* i actually survived it... survived the ardous task of knocking on every single doors in Boon Lay area and ask if they have old newspaper and/or old clothes...

well, u r right... went for garang guni for COR to raise fund for our project... never knew until today tat garang guni is so "shiong"... heard from friends before tat it is very tiring but experiencing it yourself is totally different...

wat make it worse is tat it rain the whole day... the wet weather didnt help at all... i think most ppl r going to fall sick... me included... and worse still, i still haven do my tutorial yet... arrrggghhhh...

now the question is to do my tutorial or not... to rest my body or to press on with my studies... such a difficult decision...

back to garang guni experience, it can be considered as a most memorable... u meet all kind of ppl... from the very nice aunties to the no-i-m-not-buying-anything-from-u attitude... some residents r very helpful... they tied up their newspaper nicely, pack things inside nice cardboard for us, expressing concern for us over the rain... and of course there will be 'bad' ppl also... some dont even let u explain your reason there and slam the door close... some will said "no, i dont want to buy" then slam the door... funny, who want to sell things to them??

well, today can be considered as the day when i knock on the most door... hahahah... so ironic... when i was small, i used to play truant by pressing/knocking on the door of my neighbours and ran away... now when i grew up, i had to knock on so many doors...

if u ask me if i want to do garang guni again... i'll say "NO!"... though is memorable but once is enuf...

A Busy New Year

first week of school... first week of 2006... *sigh* and i m so busy now...

nobody to blame, can only blame myself... procrastination... alot of things i should get it done in the holiday, but i didnt... well, now have to catch up with things to meet dateline...

RSPHI first tuition this tomolo... but the student turn out rate seems low... hope the actual number of student will be better... alot of them also sms me and tell me they cannot make it on tomolo... then there is problem with the CSSC membership... f*ck up...

Hall 8 production PnP stuffs r waiting for me to get it done... have to arrange photoshoot, design booklet, poster, banner, website... arrrggghhhh... y i procrastinate?? now i suffer...

FOC programme... well, all in a mess... need to arrange a meeting soon and dateline is looming near...

MF programme also... well, now in a loss also... not sure wat to do... have to re-organise my stuff and get things done... but wat?? i better figure it out soon... real soon!!!

on top of tat there is lectures, tutorials and labs... arrrgghhh... u all should see my notes and tutorials... a whole big stack... dont know how to survive this semester...

please give some advice... wat should i do?? quit those commitment... but i can't be so irresponsible... let my studies suffer?? cannot... long time didnt get good results le... this semester must at least improve a bit... so the only choice now is to sleep less than 2 hours a day to get things done... *sigh*

New Year Resolution

should have post this before the new year... but procrastination got a better hold of me... sigh

well, better late than never...

the following list will be my resolutions, aims, dreams or wishes that i hope to achieve in the course of 2006

1. Put more effort into my studies. (This seems to be in my list every year, *sigh*)
2. Start a healthier lifestyles. More healthy food, less junkies. No more sedentary lifestyles.
3. Be more responsible.
4. Get a part time job and start saving to repay my study loans.
5. Be more 'well read'.
6. Continue my violin and hopefully will be much better by the end of 2006.
7. Go back home as often as possible.

NB : at first i intend to put a review of the year 2005 together with the resolution but when i looked back at 2005, there is nothing much i can remember... nothing much worth to mention it here... hope 2006 will be more eventful tat can carve a deep impression in my heart...