Friends!!!
this feeling has been "bottle-up" in my heart for a long time liao... now cannot take it anymore, must find some somewhere to release it....
wat r friends? someone to share your joy and sorrow, u may say... but how many ppl out there r willing to go all the way out to help a friend?! if i were to say i need to borrow a large sum of money (lets say$500) who will lend it to me without asking much questions?! how many ppl dont mind all the trouble so that he/she can be with his/her friends?! And let me ask all of u who read my blog, "How important r friends to u? Where would u place your friends in your heart?"
For me, friends r very important to me... they rank 2nd... only after my family... but sadly to say, not everyone is like me, and i respect everyone decision, it just tat i dont understand why would anyone put their friends below anything else... so wat if u r rich and u got no friends?! so wat if u r successful and get good results in studies but there is nobody to share your sorrow?! so wat if u become famous and realise tat there is no one tat u can share your joy?!
i remember i used to have 3 friends... i considered them as my best friends... how they feel about me is another matter... well, we use to do alot of things together... we can see each other in school... we go out together so often... we r like so close (or maybe it is all just an illusion)... then came the day i came to study in Singapore-JC... yeah, u all can guess, all those "keep in touch", "call me" etc stuff during farewell... but wat really happen is the other way... did i receive any call from them? NO! Did i receive any sms from them? Yeah, but all those forwarded sms... email? Oh yeah, got, those forwarded one lor, otherwise it just replying my email... well so sad :( ... u all must be saying "Aiyoh, they dont call u, u can call them one mah!" ... Yeah, i did but dont u realise tat it is just not the same... i dont mind calling them everyday but y cant they call me once in a while?! 'm i not important to them???
sometimes when i go back to JB for the weekends, we do go out together but the feeling is different... the 3 of them (which still studying in the same school) will be chatting about topic that i dont know... they will be gossipin' about their new friends tat i dont know... worse still, they ask their new friends to come along to our gathering... when tat happen, i feel so left out... i just dont know their new friends... they will be talking about topic tat i dont have a clue about... well, i can always make friends with their new friends BUT unfortunately, i m not tat kind of ppl tat can mix around easily...
Now, the 4 of us r studying ni Uni oledi... i m in singapore, they r still in Malaysia but not in JB anymore... well there are less chances for us to be togeter again... well isn't it good then?! i wont be meeting their "friends" anymore... hahaah... well u all must be thinking tat i m such a selfish person... No, i m not... they can be with their friends when and where they want, it just tat i also want to be with them too, but just the 4 of us, like we used to be... (well, the key word is "used" - past tense)
well, i do meet some new friends in JC... but sadly to say i never get close to them... it is not tat i dont want, but just very difficult for me to get close to someone... so my JC life, i m alone most of the time....
now in NTU, i met a whole bunch of new friends... how will things turn out??? well, only time will tell...
*PS - My friends, if i offended any of u in this blog, then i sincerely apologise for it... it just tat this feeling is "bottle-up" in my heart for too long oledi... i need to pour it all out somewhere... So sorry....
wat r friends? someone to share your joy and sorrow, u may say... but how many ppl out there r willing to go all the way out to help a friend?! if i were to say i need to borrow a large sum of money (lets say$500) who will lend it to me without asking much questions?! how many ppl dont mind all the trouble so that he/she can be with his/her friends?! And let me ask all of u who read my blog, "How important r friends to u? Where would u place your friends in your heart?"
For me, friends r very important to me... they rank 2nd... only after my family... but sadly to say, not everyone is like me, and i respect everyone decision, it just tat i dont understand why would anyone put their friends below anything else... so wat if u r rich and u got no friends?! so wat if u r successful and get good results in studies but there is nobody to share your sorrow?! so wat if u become famous and realise tat there is no one tat u can share your joy?!
i remember i used to have 3 friends... i considered them as my best friends... how they feel about me is another matter... well, we use to do alot of things together... we can see each other in school... we go out together so often... we r like so close (or maybe it is all just an illusion)... then came the day i came to study in Singapore-JC... yeah, u all can guess, all those "keep in touch", "call me" etc stuff during farewell... but wat really happen is the other way... did i receive any call from them? NO! Did i receive any sms from them? Yeah, but all those forwarded sms... email? Oh yeah, got, those forwarded one lor, otherwise it just replying my email... well so sad :( ... u all must be saying "Aiyoh, they dont call u, u can call them one mah!" ... Yeah, i did but dont u realise tat it is just not the same... i dont mind calling them everyday but y cant they call me once in a while?! 'm i not important to them???
sometimes when i go back to JB for the weekends, we do go out together but the feeling is different... the 3 of them (which still studying in the same school) will be chatting about topic that i dont know... they will be gossipin' about their new friends tat i dont know... worse still, they ask their new friends to come along to our gathering... when tat happen, i feel so left out... i just dont know their new friends... they will be talking about topic tat i dont have a clue about... well, i can always make friends with their new friends BUT unfortunately, i m not tat kind of ppl tat can mix around easily...
Now, the 4 of us r studying ni Uni oledi... i m in singapore, they r still in Malaysia but not in JB anymore... well there are less chances for us to be togeter again... well isn't it good then?! i wont be meeting their "friends" anymore... hahaah... well u all must be thinking tat i m such a selfish person... No, i m not... they can be with their friends when and where they want, it just tat i also want to be with them too, but just the 4 of us, like we used to be... (well, the key word is "used" - past tense)
well, i do meet some new friends in JC... but sadly to say i never get close to them... it is not tat i dont want, but just very difficult for me to get close to someone... so my JC life, i m alone most of the time....
now in NTU, i met a whole bunch of new friends... how will things turn out??? well, only time will tell...
*PS - My friends, if i offended any of u in this blog, then i sincerely apologise for it... it just tat this feeling is "bottle-up" in my heart for too long oledi... i need to pour it all out somewhere... So sorry....
posted by Quicksilver at 6:34 PM
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Hey Ed... At least ur friends still bother to SMS and email u although they're all forwarded ones... At least they still remember that u exist and they bother to forward u stuffs... if they dun remember u anymore, they won't have sent anything to u... And now everyone's so busy to have a decent chat over the phone, so be glad they still SMS and email u...
(I admit this is what I use to comfort myself when I feel the same way as u...)
As for bringing other friends along, I supposed everyone of us has this "selfishness" within us bah... Wanting to "kill 2 birds with a stone", wanting to be with 2 grps of friends at the same time... On the surface, ur friends may not mind the presence of strangers, and they may be getting along well, but it's afterall a group gathering! Pls dun bring any extras along! Worse still when pple bring their other halves... make singles feel so terrible!
OK my above comments goes out to everyone who's reading this... Sorry Neh Bu, this is what have been in my mind all these while too... Just using ur place to put my feelings...
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